Fail to plan, plan to fail

 I’m not a planner, it’s not in my DNA.  I do plan but It’s an effort all of the time.  I like to float along, see where things take me which hasn’t been the best approach for my life at times.  When I have been successful it’s because I’ve put in the planning AND the effort to see it through.  This is one of those “a ha” moments for me.  It’s not always lack of planning and it’s not always lack of effort but these two are my nemesis.  When I do plan the effort and follow through seem to make an appearance.  When I have effort with out planning I still get “stuff done” but it normally isn’t what I needed to get done I just got “stuff”done.  What I’ve come to realize is that this approach isn’t one that will consistently bear fruit for me.  Sure, I’ll progress and I’ll get stuff done but It won’t get me where I want to be very quickly and most importantly WHERE I want to be.  You know the old adage “any road will take you someone where” well that’s kinda me.  

So where if any road will take you somewhere which road will take me where I want to go?  That road is the one that has lot’s of pot holes, overgrown with weeds and basically the “road less travelled”.  But on this road I’m going to find the things that will serve me for the rest of my life.  Things like fitness, good physical and mental health, a solid relationship with my family, empathy towards others.  So why are all of these things found on the less travelled road?  Because for everyone the road is unique to thier own journey.  For me these are the things at this point in my life that are important to me but require consistent effort to achieve.  I’ve let my physical health deteriorate over the past number of years.  Because of this my fitness isn’t where I need it to be.  Because of this my mental health has suffered etc etc.  Where I want to be requires me to bring myself back to the moment and ask myself “am I where I want to be”?  “Am I the best version of myself?”.  The answer is absolutely not.  

So here I am deciding that I want to be that absolute best version of myself.  I also realize that the approach I’ve taken to this point doesn’t work.  I realize that I need help, help with the journey, and help with the planning.  I need someone to pull me along when I don’t want to go any further, someone to help me be accountable and give a little pep talk, some extra motivation.  In steps my best friend to lend me that hand.  Together we’ll hold each other accountable and pull each other along when the other doesn’t want to.  In steps my I Ho Chuan team, they’ve always lent their hands and pulled me along when I’ve needed.  And now I have to step up and put the consistent effort out there.  I’m the only one that can do the push ups, sit ups and the requirements that I’ve signed up for and made that promise.

Mr. Repay