This last couple of months have been the hardest two months that I have had to face as it affects my training. I haven't been home except the weekends (sometimes only Sunday) and have been traveling non stop. My training has ceased in every way possible from simple push ups to blogging.
I'm exhausted to say the least. I need a break and after I get back from Winnipeg this week I'm taking the next two weeks off. I will be back at the kwoon this Friday for what feels like years ago that I was last there.
I want everyone to know that I haven't quit, I haven't given up but I also haven't been there for the team through my blogging like I should have. No excuses for that and I own that 100%.
The struggles I face are staying engaged. It's not for lack of tools and direction on how to do this from many of you that have managed to stay engaged while being away. It comes down to me and what I want. It's a mental state and it comes down to discipline and priorities. I struggle with these two things. I know what I need to be doing but I don't want to take the steps to move myself in that direction. Thinking about doing it and actually doing it are two very different things.
I can't tell you all how excited I am to be coming back on Friday. I am going to use this time to re charge with all the posative energy and carry that into the new year.
Best regards,
Ian Repay
Student of Silent River Kung Fu
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