Yes I quit the I Ho Chaun, almost. I gave up and quit doing anything and I mean anything. I haven't done a push up or a sit up for almost two months. I gave up on the team and I'm not proud of it but I convinced myself that this was only about me. Every day I convinced myself that I shouldn't go to class because there were more important things like watching a football game, baseball game , just anything but going to class. It was easier to do this than convince myself that I should get myself to class. Most of the time I had been away from home for weeks on end and then the week I was at home it was easier to stay home. Day after day it became easier to convince myself not to come to class. I became lazy, I became out of shape and overweight. Both mentally and physically I gave up.
Now here is the almost part. I still logged into Google + and I read and I read and I read some more. I read some great blogs and some great posts. However this wasn't enough to get myself to class. What has turned this around for me happened last night. I went to watch my daughter ride in a lesson with her horse. She was in a special lesson with an instructor from Germany she had never met before. The lesson was tough to watch as he made my daughter work really hard and she was physically and mentally struggling. I could see that she was angry, upset and wanted to quit. She didn't. She pushed hard and fought to keep going. I was literately brought to tears not only to see her persevere but tears of shame for myself that I had done the opposite.
I have failed so many times and have had to pick myself up both physically and more recently mentally that at times its difficult to become motivated. You sometimes get motivation from the most unexpected places.
Thank you Haleigh for the motivation to continue my Kung Fu journey. You effort and determination has inspired me more than you know.
Mr. Ian Repay
Student of Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, Alberta
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