Apprehension but also positivity.

Today I leave for a week in Winnipeg. I haven't been back in four+ years.  That year was the hardest year I've ever lived.  I left my family behind to chase a dream of entrepreneurship and money.  I thought that's what I needed, more money.  Well let me tell you that's not what I needed after all.  

I learnt so much about myself that in someways it was worth it. It showed me that I don't need to chase money. I needed more time with my family.  I needed more time  to enjoy the things that mattered and it wasn't money, wealth etc.  I also learned that I really didn't want to be an entrepreneur.  What I needed to do was take this knowledge and use it to develop myself into the person I am right now. I wouldn't have found the opportunity with Continental Tire if I never left Michelin to go to Winnipeg. 

I'm apprehensive because I can't shake this feeling.  It was so very difficult, leaving my family behind after only being home for a couple's of days every month or so.  The terrible people that I had working for me that threatened my life on a few occasions.  What if I run into my old partner?  How am I going to react?  What am I going to say to them?  We left on good terms but haven't spoken a single word since the day I left.  

I'm probably thinking about this too much but it's kinda of how I'm wired.  

Now for some positive. My wife and I have been consistently walking every single day for the past 3 weeks. Something we decided to do together and it's been amazing. It's amazing not only because of the positive physical benefits, but it's mentally beneficial.  What I'm also liking is the habit that we've developed, the habit of making sure that every day we get out and get our walking in together. There have been days for both of us that we didn't want to get out but we pushed each other because we felt the benefits.  For me the benefit is so much more than physical activity, it's getting out and spending time with my wife that makes me so much happier.  I was in Calgary all last week on business.  We took the time to connect on a video call.  We walked and talked and shared the day with each other.  It was amazing ☺️.

Mr. Repay