Wednesday, May 27, 2020

Six Harmonies

I've been working hard on flow for the past few months.  This has been something that has eluded my understanding of this concept until recently.  I've started to breakdown my training and understand the "why" for what we're doing.  

An example of this has been the change in Da Mu Sing.  I can start to understand the "pulling" of one tequnique into the other.  In the past I was focused on finishing each tequnique before moving to the next.  I still finish each one but at the last moment I start to flow the transition into the next one.  

This has been really exciting as I'm starting to really feel it and feel the power of what I'm doing.  It feels like I've graduated from kindergarten to grade one lol!  

Mr. Repay

Monday, May 18, 2020

Starting to find my stride again.

The "one on ones" have really helped my Kung Fu but I wish they were an hour Vs ten minutes lol.  A couple of things that have really stuck out was when performing my forms I wasn't finishing the tequnique at the same time as I was setteling into my stance.  By fixing this I feel much more powerful and the flow is improved.  

Another area that needed fixing was my horse stance.  My right knee seemed to always be open and I wasn't squared in my stance.  I don't have an injury rather I think I've been doing it this way for so long that it felt normal.  When I perform forms with a horse stance I'm more mindful of this and pay extra attention so that it can become the new normal for me.  

Finally I've been given feedback that I'm making the forms "my own" which was SUPER COOL to hear.

Even though we're away from the kwoon I feel that I'm getting good value from the current format.  I've traveled so much over my Kung Fu training that being away from the kwoon is tough but may not be as difficult for me as for some people.  I can't wait to get back but it's more about being with my friends and family in an environment that is just awesome for the soul!

Until that time, let's keep moving forward with the current format and make the best of it.

Mr. Repay

Sunday, May 10, 2020

Thank-you

I'm feeling much better!  Thanks to my teammates for all the kind words and support.  It's hard reaching out for help but when you have a family that cares so genuinely it warms my heart and soul. 

The meeting on Saturday was so important for me.  I missed the opportunity just to talk and share.  The Thursday classes are good, but in a different way.  I really hope that we continue to meet at least once a month going forward.  

Finally, I feel re energized and ready to start moving forward again.  Thanks to everyone that reached out and picked me up.  

Mr. Repay
Student of Silent River Kung Fu. 

Saturday, May 9, 2020

Various ramblings and reflections

I have a really small family and I've recently lost a dear family member to cancer.  I've been reflecting on his death and my own mortality.  Maybe it's the age I'm at combined with his death that has me thinking?  I'm starting to realize that I may have less in front of me that behind.  No one knows how long we have on this earth and I get that.  However it seems that with everything happening in the world right now it's really hitting me.  

Over the past month I've been retreating inside myself.  I've had a hard time reaching out to people that aren't my immediate family.  This isn't normal for me as I'm a very extreverted person or at least I used to think so.  

I know what I need to do and I've been telling myself that I need to get started.  I just haven't been able to do it. Sifu Brinker wrote a recent blog that has been bouncing around in my head.  I've allowed this pandemic to both defined me and revealed who perhaps I really am inside.  

I'm not liking what I'm seeing in the mirror right now.  

Mr. Repay
Student of Silent River Kung Fu 

Sunday, April 5, 2020

Adapting to the new norm

I'm enjoying this new world of Kung Fu more than I thought I would.  I wasn't sure how this new way of training was going to work and how valuable it would be to me.  In my line of work I don't have the benefit and luxury of being able to be at the kwoon for every class.  I've had to adapt to training in hotel rooms, meeting rooms etc.  With this online training course this is actually nirvana in some ways as it dovetails really well with the style of training I've had to adapt to over the years.  What's even better is that I get some one on one time to really get some valuable feedback.  I do miss the kwoon and I do miss seeing and working with my classmates but it's going to be what's it going to be.  

Stay safe everyone.

Mr. Repay

Monday, March 30, 2020

Key learnings and positivity

There's some things that I've realized over the past two weeks.  These past two weeks are the first weeks in the pandemic that really had a impact on our families lives.  I've never been restricted by movement or what I can and can't buy.  The only restrictions to movement or purchasing were based on if I could afford it.  That all changed these past two weeks.  I've experienced my own employer telling me that I wasn't allowed to see customers until June.  The government (provincially and federally) has limited where we are allowed to spend time.  They've shut schools, parks, gyms, entertainment places and restaurants.  When I go shopping for food I now see empty shelves and limits on what I can buy.  There's plexiglass barriers in front of the cashiers and lines on the floor keeping people apart.  

These are truly unprecedented times for every single person on earth.  I never once thought this could come Canada or my home town of Stony Plain.  Something like this was what happened in the movies or far away places like China.  But here we are, face to face with a pandemic that has killed tens of thousands and will devestate the global economy like we never seen before. Now before I get to far down this rabbit hole, here's the positives.

1. More time with my family.  More time to spend with my wife and kids.  We're spending it talking with each other at the kitchen table over a meal.  We're playing Domino's and board games and laughing with each other.  We are taking the time to discuss this pandemic and find ways to deal with it as a family.  We're stronger pulling together than on our own.
2. Food waste is going way down.  I'm cooking every single meal at home and I'm watching my fridge very carefully.  I'm planning meals based on what I need to cook first before it spoiles.  I was never this mindful before.  It's resulted in eating better more balanced meals and my fast food intake is WAY DOWN.
3. Cutting unecessary spending.  It's amazing how much money was being wasted.  Lots of $15, $20 amounts add up to a big number at the end of the month.  This pandemic has helped me realize these areas of waste.
4. Debt load.  My family doesn't have a lot of debt and that's by choice.  We don't have a lot of fancy toys or a summer cottage but at times like these I've realized that being unencumbered is a very positive thing.
5. Employment.  So far I'm still employed and I'm extremely grateful for it.  We've recently agreed to take a tempory 20% pay cut for the next few months.  It's tough to accept a pay cut but it's way better than the unemployment line.  

As this pandemic rages on, I'm choosing to focus on the positive.  

Monday, March 23, 2020

My worst nightmare

I'm strugling.  I'm strugling with my Kung Fu, my requirements, my sanity in a world that's so different than anything I've ever experienced.  

For the people that know me, I'm a person that needs social interaction.  My soul, my spirit desires to be around and interacting with people.  I'm doing what our government says we should be doing and that's staying home.  However it's taking it's toll on me.  I'm completely out of sorts right now.  I don't have the motivation to train and work is becoming a struggle.  I've got to find ways to get through this as I feel this is going to be the "new normal" for quite a while yet.  

The I Ho Chuan teaches us to have structure and until this pandemic hit hard I was sticking to my structure fairly well.  I've let the world around me interfere with my world and everything that's important to me.  

I want to very clear here, I'm not looking for tips or advice as I know exactly what I need to do.  I'm writing this because I need to vent so that I can clear my mind and soul and get back to it.  

This pandemic will change our lives in some way forever.  However we have choice on how we let it affect us and lead our lives.  

Stay safe and look after yourselves and your families.  If your able, help those families and people  that can't look after themselves.  

We have the opportunity to become better people, all we have to do is take what we learn in the kwoon out into our community.  This is our opportunity to give back, show empathy help those in need and really share the love of SRKF.  

Mr. Repay
Student Of Silent River Kung Fu