Four consecutive classes.

Yesterday was my fourth straight class.  To most people this isn't a big deal and some may even be thinking "what's the big deal?".  It's a big deal for me as it's been a tough couple of years.  I travel a ton with my job which makes it really difficult to be in person for class.  The live streaming option has been a big help but I didn't utilize this enough in the past.  

All sorts of excuses come to mind but none of them are valid, they're just excuses.  Last evening some negative thoughts entered my mind and I was actually battling myself mentaly on attending class.  It shouldn't be like this but for me it's been this battle for far too long.  What changed for me and helped me move forward was my teammates good natured "trash talking".  Sihing Csillag was in my head with her comments from last week.  I'm not going to disappear, I'm going to be engaged and I'm going to keep progressing. I also loved how Sihings Csillag and Lindstrom poked and jabbed me after class.  I loved this, I need this.

Cautiously and neavously things feel different for me.  I'm putting repition and accountability into my life.  The more consistently that I take action the easier it is to battle the dark side that's inside me.  I feel I'm more equipped mentally to win this year.  I'm going to keep my head down, keep taking action daily, record everything in my excel file but I'm taking the time to smile and be happy.  

Mr. Repay