Recently a colleague of mine was supposed to come out to Alberta and spend this week with me in the market. There were some warning signs that not all was right with him. Well today I finally found out that he wasn't coming and we had a bit of a conversation as to why. The similarities that I saw with his actions yesterday we're all too similar to mine at times. He withdrew and ignored my phone calls and texts because he felt embarrassed. In my opinion there was absolutely no reason to feel embarrassed but yet he felt like he was letting me down and instead of communicating with me he withdrew. This was a light bulb moment for me because I'm done the exact same things I've just never seen it from this perspective before. How can I help? How can I be a friend and mentor to him? How do I share all the different times that I've withdrawn and the effect that it had on me with him?
I'm personally going through another tough time. I've been traveling and working a lot over the past 5 weeks and I've prioritized that over my kung fu. I haven't necessarily fully withdrawn but because I haven't attended class I can feel the pull of that withdrawal. Going through the past few days with my colleague has brought some perspective to my own withdrawal and inspired me to write. I've been embarrassed at times because I haven't been at class and I also feel that I've let down my I Ho Chuan team. I do know that I don't need to feel this way because my team mates are awesome like minded people. I need them to pick me up when I'm down and many of you have! I want to be that same person to my colleagues so that I can help him persevere and get stronger through this experience.
Mr. Repay
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