Engagement

The meeting on Saturday was eye opening for me.  I was silent because everything that was being said, felt like it was said about me. I've been coasting for the past month.  I have been doing the bare minimum and sometimes not even that.  I've retreated into my "closet" and I'm on this journey by myself. All of this can be fixed it's just a matter of making it happen.  I've reflected back on my Kung Fu journey and I've realized that I've been the most successful when I sourounded myself with a group of people that shared the journey with me.  I can recall the competitiveness of the Tuesday San Shou class, the crazy Saturday morning fitness classes and the open training that followed.  I have fond memories of Canada Day demo's, dropping my nu chucks and not dropping them on the bridge.  I can honestly say that I miss those years the most and I haven't been able to re create them since I've been back. Most of those people have become Sifu's and moved on, some never came back as students.  So why is it that I haven't been able to build those same relationships now?  I've concluded that it's my ego and my own resentment of where I currently am with my training.  This is 100% on me and me alone.  In the past I've gone through the ranks with friends that we at the same rank or right around my rank.  We pushed each other to become better, there was a healthy competition and we all thrived.  I want that again, I want to push and be pushed to become better.  I know it's not going to be easy within the world we are living in but it's not impossible either.  I'm reaching out my hand to who ever wants to pick up this journey with me, to push each other and have some fun.

Mr. Ian Repay