Pandamonium was this past weekend and I was able to attend in the midst of a crazy work schedule. Being there and being in the middle of all of those amazing people helped recharge my batteries so to speak. I have written about how the kwoon is that place where one can come and get a jolt of positivity. I needed that jolt as I haven't been feeling all that positive.
The reason for this is that I have gained more weight than I would have liked over the past while. Its affecting my mental state as I have never been overweight in my life before. I realize that poor diet choices along with sitting way to long all day in meetings has caught up with me. Also the lack of training in any form doesn't help the situation. At the end of the day I'm mentally exhausted and all I want to do is unplug mentally and physically. My kung fu, which has served me through tough times in the past has taken a back seat of late.
I know what I have to do. I know I need to get back to making the proper diet choices straight off. Easier said than done while living on the road. However an improvement is and improvement and a step in the right direction. Next I need to start doing my basic requirements in the morning when I'm rested. I have tried this before and it works. I just have never been able to make it a habit. Lastly I need to be accountable or nothing will change. The solution for accountability is to be visible to my teammates online. I need to start posting what I have and haven't done each day.
It was great seeing everyone this weekend and I look forward to getting back to the kwoon as soon as I can.
Mr. Ian Repay
It's hard when you get kind of stuck in a negative cycle to break out of it. Because you're right, it's exhausting. It's really hard to stay motivated when you're constantly fighting a mental battle with yourself. Small steps will get you back on track. I find if I sit down and write the changes I want to make, and how to make them happen, it's much easier.
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