Control

I have come to the realization that I can only control what I can and the rest must be dealt with as best I can.  With that being said I have control over what I spend my time doing both work wise and personal.  Both areas are places where I can make better use of my time.  I choose to control what I want and I have been feeling like I have wasted many opportunities. 

I struggle with motivation most of the times.  I accept mediocrity more than I want to.  I put things off until they can no longer be put off.  I still meet my deadlines but I'm surely not proactive as much as I should be. 

To be honest, I figured I would have been further along with my kung Fu than where I am right now.  But...why should I think that when I haven't put in the consistent effort?  I have been fooling myself by thinking that I "deserve" it.  I don't need to re evaluate what I need to do, I know what needs to be done.  I just need to step up and want to make that change, that change in my life that will move me past where I am and where I want to be.

Ian Repay
Student of Silent River Kung Fu