Round and round I go and to be honest I never like the merry go round. I got dizzy and would think "what's the point of this ride"? You don't go anywhere, you don't do anything, all you do is sit there and watch the world spin around you with every revolution. As much I didn't like this ride it seems that I have spent way too much time on it. Watching the world spin by while all I do is sit there.
So when I came to this realization (and I have many time before this) why haven't done anything about it? Simple answer and the only answer is I'm lazy. No other explanation that I can think of and no other excuse.
I'm lazy and I don't want to change. It really is that simple when I think and reflect back. It's easier to do nothing and accept life as it comes Vs doing something about it. Why haven't I reached some of my goals in life? Because I'm too lazy to follow them all the way through and or make the permanent changes in my life that would allow me to reach these goals. I know that I can do almost anything I put my mind to and I have proven that when I want to change I can make some amazing things happen. I have seen some of my teammates change their lives for the better and I applaud them for their courage and effort to change. I look at myself and I say to my self, "that's good enough" and I accept mediocrity because I'm too lazy to put the sustained effort to affect long term change.
The thing is, I know why I am like I am. I know that I have let my self accept mediocrity in my life as the norm. What I need is a swift kick in the back side or slap upside my head to "wake me up". However I know that the only one to do this is myself. A lifetime of mediocrity is a tough thing to change unless I want it more than anything else. So now how bad do I want it?
Ian Repay
Student Of Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain,
Wake up. This is a very good way to look at it. Stay in the moment, recognize where you are, see where you want to be, and boldly proceed.
ReplyDeleteIf you were truly lazy you'd be on the couch with a bag of Doritos, an IV line from the purple fridge, and with an attitude of not giving a crap about anything. However, you changed jobs, that took a pile of work and effort on your part because it was something that you really wanted. I've seen you bake, you take on stuff that's labor intensive. Dude, that's not being lazy.
ReplyDeleteSo really, are you lazy or selective at what you want to truly pursue? If the answer is the latter, then you are using your resources wisely.
Something to think about.