UBBT - Celebration of life

These past couples of weeks have been very trying at best.  My grandmother has taken a turn for worst these past couple of weeks.  We are now planning what most families don’t want to do that often and that is plan a funeral.  However we all take solace in the fact that she was almost 90 years old and lived a very full life.  There has never been a woman in my life that was so positive at all times.  She was content in all aspect of her life and that is a tough thing to do these days.  We seem to be living a life that is superficial at best.  We are looking for that next promotion and that new car as we try and justify our place in the world.  My grandmother was not that person.  She was spiritual and her belief in the Lord was what gave her such peace in her life.  She was not interested in the shiny new things rather she was interested only living her life with the Lord day by day.

I have been having a difficult time recently with my UBBT requirements as my personal life, my business life and my Kung Fu are not in balance.  I am struggling to even find the energy to do my push ups and sit ups as well as my journaling.  I have no excuse for this and I have to push through and use this UBBT process as way to bring my life back into focus.  I have been traveling a lot these past week s and I have not been able to attend classes which are not helping me keep that “connection” with my teammates at the kwoon.  I know that I should be reaching out to my teammates for support but I feel that in doing that would send the message that I am not strong enough on my own.  I know that I should not feel this way but I do and I am not sure how to stop feeling this way? I have decided that I am going to finish hard regardless if I am going to reach my goals or not.  I know that I going to fail in areas and in some areas I may reach my goals.  I realize now that this is not all about reaching the goals but rather the journey to get to the goals is what matters.

What matters most is celebrating the life of one of the most amazing grandmother's a grandson could ever have been blessed to have in his life.

Ian Repay
Student Member UBBT8
Silent River Kung Fu