I recently made a decision to get back to my training with Silent River Kung Fu. I reached out to Sifu Brinker and we had (as always) an amazing conversation. In fact we both had been thinking of each other as recently as two weeks ago.
I've recently gone back and re read a number of the blog posts over the past 9 years. They all seem to have a similar theme to them, failure, self doubt and and self pity. Re reading these posts has helped with perspective and growth. I like many are not the same person nine years ago let alone one year ago. I've changed significantly and I've grown as a individual.
The main area of growth is in the area of ego. This has been one area that I've struggled with but over the past number of years I've been humbled and that's a very good thing.
I'm embarking on this journey for a number of reasons. The number one is to achieve what a very small percentage of people achieve and that's my black belt. Is achieving my black belt self serving and selfish? No, it's just a symbol or a marker of where I am in my journey. I won't stop there as I want Kung Fu to be an integral part of who I am for the rest of my life. I want to keep learning and teaching. I want to mentor and develop as many students as I can until I can't do this anymore.
I feel rejuvenated and excited. This is what I need and where I need to be.
Ian Repay
