FUNK…
What else can I say to describe how I have felt these past 6 to 8 weeks other than I have been in a “funk”? Over these past 6 to 8 weeks there has been a tremendous amount of change in my life.
I had one of my Baba’s (Ukrainian for grandmother) and our family’s matriarch pass away. This was a great loss as my Baba was a wonderful lady and a person who has shaped a large part of who I am today. My Baba was a very religious person who lived a simple but very rewarding life. She was a person who always had faith in the lord and that never wavered but only got stronger with the more adversity she faced. She would always pray for us and she made sure that we always understood the importance of prayer. I am going to miss her so very much as I know she loved us with so much of who she was.
During this sad time we were blessed with the purchase of a new home for our family. We had been renting our acreage since we moved to Alberta 9 years ago. We had owned our own home back in Saskatchewan and we dearly wanted to get back to that in Alberta. However, the prices here are significantly more that back in Sask so it took a little longer to realize our dream. We are so very happy and blessed that we have been able to realize this dream and if it weren’t for the help of Kristy’s parents and my parents we could not have made this happen.
Now here is where the “funk” happens. I guess for the past many years there was little major upheaval in my life. I got into a routine and things seemed to flow from day to day releativly easily. However the start of or 2011 had a few major changes that we could not have envisioned. People have said the two most stressful things that one can go through in life are the following.
1. The death of a close family member
2. Moving from one house to another.
I totally agree with this and I had to deal with both in less than a three week span. My routine was completely thrown out of the window and I found it very difficult to cope. I did my best to continue with my Kung Fu training as it was something that I found to be a stress reliever. However this routine of training was also impacted and I could not keep up with everything that was happening in my life. During these past weeks I have not been a very nice person to live with. I have been very short fused and irritable with family. I have not smiled much and finding things to make me laugh were few and far between. I spent too much time “sweating the little things” and lost focus on the bigger picture that was in front of me. I am have apologized to my family and I am working on improving this area of my life. What I have come to realize is that I realized what my problem was. I think that realization is the first step in dealing with the issue. The second thing was to apologize for my actions and take steps to improve upon this so that the next time this happens I will have put processes in place to deal with this.
I have missed a lot of classes lately and this has really not helped with my training both physically or mentally. However it was the mental side that I really missed. I missed my friends and I really missed the positive energy at the Kwoon. I really didn’t realize how this positive energy could affect me…. I can say that I left the kwoon today with a totally new outlook on life and I am re energized and ready to go again. My UBBT goals numbers have suffered but I am going to get back on track and get things going again.
To my family – I am very sorry for my poor attitude these past weeks. I promise that I will be much easier to live with!
To my UBBT team members – Sorry for not pulling my weight these past weeks. I am back on track and I EXPECT you all to come and kick my but the next time you see me =)
Ian Repay
Student of Silent River Kung Fu
UBBT 8 student team member
